System overloading…
Crashing imminent…
Shut down.
That is the program I had running in my mind after I met my employer again. I’m just helping her design a template, to ensure her crossing between a really crappy host to a cheap, reliable host is as smooth as possible. But she started dishing out all these stuff she wants to include and my mind just ran the program listed above.
I mean…my skill is limited. I don’t attend classes to learn these webby things. It’s all my own free time, my passion, my hobby. When I want to learn something to help me improve my “designing”, I learn it in my own pace, on my own time, with absolutely no pressure. No pressure.
When she started suggesting things that she would like to be included, my thoughts were saying that agreeing to do this job was a wrong idea. I don’t know. Maybe I’m way in over my head. And on top of this I have…
To help my friend’s father with his site. And I think it’s the expectation that I should do something little by little each day that is just so heavy. I mean, I’ve got my first employer, I’ve got my three tests next week, my course requirements, readings and on top of that, helping him with his site.
And my parents wants me to find work. I just feel so tired.
Sometimes I tell myself that I’m not going to blog until the next day, but then at night I’ll come crawling to my laptop and post something. It’s quite a…strange feeling.
I laid in bed last night and thought about how my first week of returning to university went by quite fast. Even though it’s been blaring at me in the face for the whole five days. I’ve got to wake up before 9am. That’s quite a feat considering that last term I had one day off, classes starting at 1pm for two days and the other two days consisted of a loooooong day. It was extreme advantage and disadvantage. Still…
So how was my first week back? Boring and dull. And just makes my financial problems all the more clearer and bolder and heavier and just more headache. Side note, I dropped in my CV at a small sushi shop about 15 minutes from the university campus. It’s small and convenient and I have a feeling that if I do get this job, I’ll enjoy it immensely comparing to my previous job as a cafe waitress.
So back to my first week back at university. I’m only taking three papers this term. Accounting, Psychology and a Statistics paper. I’m not really liking any of them but I have to admit Psychology is rather interesting. We’re currently studying the brain and it’s all pretty gory stuff but I quite like it. I suppose if I take away the fact that I have to get up early each day, take away the Accounting paper, I suppose I quite enjoy university actually. Though I admit I’m not the best straight A student.
Maybe to maintain some reasonable HTML skills, I could create a simple single HTML page on what I have studied so far in Psychology.
Me, Ashley/Ash/AJ, out. *salute*