System overloading…
Crashing imminent…
Shut down.

That is the program I had running in my mind after I met my employer again. I’m just helping her design a template, to ensure her crossing between a really crappy host to a cheap, reliable host is as smooth as possible. But she started dishing out all these stuff she wants to include and my mind just ran the program listed above.

I mean…my skill is limited. I don’t attend classes to learn these webby things. It’s all my own free time, my passion, my hobby. When I want to learn something to help me improve my “designing”, I learn it in my own pace, on my own time, with absolutely no pressure. No pressure.

When she started suggesting things that she would like to be included, my thoughts were saying that agreeing to do this job was a wrong idea. I don’t know. Maybe I’m way in over my head. And on top of this I have…

To help my friend’s father with his site. And I think it’s the expectation that I should do something little by little each day that is just so heavy. I mean, I’ve got my first employer, I’ve got my three tests next week, my course requirements, readings and on top of that, helping him with his site.

And my parents wants me to find work. I just feel so tired.